el divorcio

well the stupid bitch i married and had a kid with insists on separating

i really feel betrayed......... also i lament the position i now find myself in......... my main reason for not suiciding is that as i firmly believe in reincarnation, i do not see the need to end my life at this point as i do not wish my subsequent human experiences after that to be as a helpless baby, than an infant, than a teenager after that.......... i do not need to have those human experiences next..........as my childhood was sufficiently unhappy, as was my youth, to not want to repeat it........

you know, if americans weren't so stupid, i would have married an american woman a long time ago, but they're all too busy getting that cunts rubbed up by DHS people every time they fly like the dumbarses that they are so fuck them

being thoroughly betrayed by a stupid russian, make me wonder if i shouldn't go live in russia and continue to get fucked up the arse by that treacherous and miserably pathetic race...... maybe i will, i have no idea

i don't even know what example to represent to my son, should i set an example that says, yes, it's okay for women to pretend they have dicks and run around like little swarthy lesbian dykes, dictating their terms neverendingly, should i tow that line, like a little bitch, and act in a way that condones it? wouldn't it be better just to leave my son, given his mother refuses to maintain a normal marital relationship and leave him to the world and let him discover for himself what worthless, treacherous whores women are? possibly

i have to do something, that's for sure........ i guess i'll stick around some more and accumulate some more money and see how i like being an absentee father and loser to the western dream of female supremacy in affairs of marriage and child-rearing

if you're reading this God, i hope you're happy with what you have created......... i shake my fist at you! you know it's true.........but that's meaningless anyway, since God is everything, fist, air, hell, heaven, all states of mind, everything in one......... so why bother dragging God into this.........

i don't want to become a dissipate, fucking all kinds of stupid 20 something year old bitches just for sex and becoming a drunk and possibly a pothead again........ i don't think i should repeat that bullshit, i am too old at 37 to spend years chasing after 20 something year old beaver and slamming shots down........ already i am drinking vodka and have gotten one 20 something year old hottie's phone number........

i'm sure lots of divorced guys go through, have gone through, and will go through what i'm going through

unfortunately, i think this western business we have of women not obeying their husbands is really betraying us...... there was even a commercial in america, political, some woman criticizing some republican guy as taliban dan brown or whatever his name was, for saying that women should submit to their husbands.... well they should, and if only the taliban realizes it then they were right and george bush was wrong.......... at least in that point of argument..............

it's funny for people to proclaim to be judeo-christian to reject the notion of women obeying their husbands, since it's a big part of the bible anyway

it just goes to show that people are a joke and you just cannot win, doesn't matter what you do......... it's depressing to think about it