https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k9o78-f2mIM
howdy dumb shluts
ever had crabs bitches? try shaving your hair off, or go all beardy, i don't care
so was dropping kids off this morning (literally like, not like crapping in the john) and listening to a segment of Kudlow on fox news over YouTube. If you're Australian, 'Kud' would make people think of 'card', as the word 'card' is always pronounced 'Kud'.... just a quirky linguistic aside.... on the topic of psychology of language
which relates to what Kudlow's segment was about which was a 'Pew' survey on mental health issues amongst Democrat and Republican voters..... I'm not sure if that's spelt right, 'pew', and I don't know anything about the pew survey system.....
but it's definitely an interesting topic, that's for sure and something close to my heart due to vulnerabilities in mental health in my immediate family, leading to various suicides...... first of all, it's important to realize that emergency responders are society's first line response to various crisis and are most vulnerable and delicate with regards to mental health. this isn't to say delicate in the sense of weak, but delicate in the sense of a precise instrument like a seismology register that picks up even minor vibrations. Imagine every time someone dies in a car accident, at home of a heart attack, by suicide, murdered by their spouse, children being raped. Just to make one example to drive the point home, i was at a party some months ago (yes i still occasionally go to parties despite being an outcast), i began talking to an Australian woman (race not relevant) about her profession: autopsy specialist. As you can imagine, reading through my sister Raquel's autopsy report is brutal for me, her lungs being pulled out and weighed. I invariably might think of Egyptian practices of the kind, but it's horrible and ghoulish to consider. I mean yeah i guess i want to know she used her stockings to hang herself dead and i want an autopsy done to prove some random stranger off the street she was bonking didn't hang her up dead or whatever but still, it's horrible, i mean and that's just one suicide in that garage but actually there were three more after that of very similar kinds (from what i gather, although actually i haven't seen any other autopsy reports, don't want to know about it, one is enough). Anyway i never mentioned any of that to the lovely autopsy lady i was talking to because often you don't want to blurt your nasty secrets out to every tom, dick and harry, so to speak. But she was telling me, after pointed and interested questioning from me about all the years that went into her training. Unlike a low skilled self taught survivalist like yours truly, this lady had some really formidable skills. And you can't become an autopsy specialist without years of specialized training. And guess what? All of that training and her usefulness to society, in a difficult profession, went out the window one day when she had to perform an autopsy on an eight year old that had been raped and murdered. That's when she knew it was time for her to hang up her doctor's coat.
So that's a very zoomed in, close up, under the microscope look at things from the Benji perspective. So while i don't know many cops personally, i do know one (former) cop that i used to play with as a child and occasionally associate with as a teenager, although nowhere near as closely as other teenage folks (with whom now i have no relationship and with the former, a little chatting now and then over facebook messenger). I know he struggled with his mental health when he left policing with PTSD. I believe he even spent some time in a psychiatric unit.
You can only imagine what it's like having to attend rapes and assaults and beatings and stabbings and murders and domestic violence issues (not always just between spouses) and the like, every day, every week, every month, every year.
Studies show that suicidal ideation is extremely high (highest) amongst first line responders. There needs to be a more Da Vinci like tackling of this issue as it's a serious issue that needs to be addressed. This is a health issue but it comes with stigma. Imagine you had some obscure issue with your genitalia (perhaps crabs or something worse), you wouldn't want your mom getting on a bull horn about it like this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aAHUNgoJQPw
I recall one time i had been jaunting around the world, from sydney end of july 2000 to bangkok, then on to nepal and tibet, on august 17th 2000, my aforementioned sister's birthday, i could see mt everest not far away, we were passing near to the base camp in four wheel drives from nepal to communist china (Shigatse, home of the Panchen Lama, then Llasa). We had a Tibetan guide with us in our ride, i was riding with two other spaniards and our guide, who wasn't driving, was a very dedicated follower of the Dalai Lama, Gyalwa Rinpoche, there was also a German woman in our party that was a student of Tibetan language and capable of speaking it.
Anyway on to Germany, Spain, my girlfriend north korea there, then on to Virginia and my girlfriend south korea there, 9/11, on to nyc and smoldering smoking remains of the twin towers, i recall being an extremely rube like hillbilly with my heavy australian accent and appearing extremely quaint and humorous to a nyc girl there (not sure what her background was but i was certainly the hillbilly), on to Paris France for six months and then returning to Sydney to end my trip where it started in late May 2002, almost two years later.
I recall going to the library in my hometown, with the Afgani librarian that has been there decades, where i used to grab the 'choose your own adventure' books from the box next to the old counter before the place was refurbished (on the same site) so that it had become unrecognizable from my days as an eleven year old playing 'moon patrol' on the old apple 2e computers in 1987.... i found a book or dvd that looked interesting: Da Vinci finger painting for toddlers.... i took the book or dvd. In short, i had travelled so much, there was so many things to process, also, i wanted to return to nyc after an invitation from a famous acting teacher to study at his school. I ended up leaving for communist china eighteen months after that return and those eighteen months saw some extremely unusual quirks and hiccups in my mental health as i made mental readjustments. I have to say, on that level, i actually felt i couldn't achieve that level of travel-ocity without the back up support of my father, mother and brother, whom i was staying with for most of that eighteen month period. My brother and mother were medicated at the time for anti-psychotic issues.
Well i meant to take on a more serious kind of look at mental health but instead got sidetracked into how to get into a disassociative trance state that is meditational but not necessarily psychotic or psychosis-like in its outlook. This is something more to do with Tibetan buddhism or hindu meditation than the western notion of mental health, I suppose.
I might try returning to this topic in a moment.... maybe i'll check in on Tucker Carlson in Hungary. If he likes it so much there, he can stay there permanently and i'd be happy to take over his job at fox news! (preferably from right here in Sydney, seriously)
cue the music: do you know what it's like to be me Mr Kudlow? just grab a crowbar and join the mob....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hBQvjtXR4qA
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