weird dream

i'm in some random kind of warehouse but it's full of people -- there's like actors there - and a big perfermoning space or something  -- but people are just being themselves, it's like a spirit world or something --- all souls in the afterlife or dream land or something -- kind of like how sweedenborg describes it except he says in hell where there's sensuality it's depicted as turds and crap and suchlike - he even draws a parallel to people being like food digested by God and the reject food (souls/earth experiences) is turned into crap and expelled through the rectum into hell -- or at least that's how Curtis Childs, some American guy doing sweedenborg videos on youtube, describes it.... anyway at some point, even though it's technically not meant to be a theatre, I get a hankering to do thespian styled acting, although i'm not a professional actor and cannot put on the same emotions over and over again like the real actors, I get a hankering to do a scene with some guy and do a really good job on the first go but don't have the right energy to repeat it even twice...... same time it's awkward in my mind because we weren't really all actors and such...... but the other guy didn't care neither the people watching.........later in the warehouse there are a lot more people milling around --- some jolie fille, as the French would say, is looking very sensuous and is kind of tied down to a platter like some kind of crazy university party thing or something and she has all these thin strips of something like a millimetre wide each stringing around stuck to her body vertically, it's all very sensuous, I get with her like kissing her mouth and breasts, we go to some alcove, even though there are people around we don't care....... then afterwards she's naked and we're back at our seats and she starts talking like a five year old which is kind of weird -- I leave and three ladies walk by asking me to do the zipper up on one their dresses.... I tell them i'm too busy --- then i'm thinking about how i'm going to hide that I cheated on my wife from her.......... there's all kinds of people milling around and other stuff -- I saw an old friend there at some point like at an outdoor kiosk thing like it's set up for karaoke or something -- earlier in the dream some women mill into a room by a beach or something and there's one lady there that's butt ugly - I think I see her vagina or something and it's kind of gross like with pussy (puss plus y as in puss) scabs or something -- I ended up touching it - it was kind of gross, I didn't really care............. definitely a weird dream............


you know, one time when I was living in nyc, I was working at some really expensive manhattan restaurant, lever house, I ended up making friends with one of the young women there, she was from texas and was telling me how her dad was a lawyer for one of these super famous American movie directors that all the young people have heard of, I don't know if she was telling the truth or what -- we ended up going to her home in Chinatown one night but I didn't really want to get with her much and she was ok with that, but she was all insistent of showing me some chinese movie and especially one scene from it where someone busts an egg or something.... I was working as a dishwasher in that restaurant and one of the American guys, like the bartender there, was chiding me for not making more money, having a better job...... other people also didn't like that I was fraternizing with the Mexicans so much, like talking in Spanish and such........... beats the hell out of me how Trump and his wall are going to provide dishwashers and agricultural workers to the relevant industries in America, but I think Trump is full of it really and just says whatever to get elected......... not a big fan of Hilary either to be honest!